The One For Me

     I always told myself that I was going to live alone. Especially in High School walking through the hallways and wondering if you could ever be as happy as all the couples. Let me just say, Valentines Day was always the worst especially if you were single. Seeing all the couples walk around with big teddy bears, candy, and flowers. Maybe that's why High School wasn't the best..!

     Movies was kind of my romantic get a away from life. I'd watch any chick flick that interested me. Some were good, and others were typical. Boy meets girl, controversy happens, and the guy finally gets the girl. Typical right? I wished I was in movies sometimes in the situation the girl was in. I thought that if I changed myself that guys would realize me, and I'd find someone who loved me.

     Except life doesn't always work out that way. I went through high school and mostly kept to myself. Didn't really date anyone except one guy who really made me regret the thought. I met him in my Sophomore year of high school, he was a junior. When I highlighted my hair and thought that it made a change in my appearance. He was in NJROTC with me, and I felt like maybe I had a chance with him.

     I asked him, and he told me yes. We hung out sometimes, and watched movies. He met my parents and it felt like it was going great. We would text all the time, and he'd make me feel great. I finally had someone I could hold hands with in the hallways, and even eat lunch with. To bad it didn't end like the fairy tales always do.

     One day, it seemed he changed. He was more angry and rude. Seems like his ex was getting jealous of what him and I were doing and he decided days before Prom to break up with me. Heart broken, I told myself that day that I would be single.

     Junior and Senior passed by with a flash. I was more worried about my studies those years. For me, obviously I didn't really seem like the "type". What I mean by "type"- is basically, in high school it seemed like all the guys wanted hot, skinny chicks. Since I was none of those, I felt like the outcast. I think a lot of girls might know what I'm talking about.

     As I prepared for graduation, I felt like finally when I moved out of my parent's house that I could change who I was, and get someone who actually understood me. It happened earlier than I thought.

     I finally met him, it was senior year.  His name is Zachary, and I love him so very much. We first met as friends. I was interested in his cousin at the time, but now that I look at it I made a very good choice. I'll explain..

    When we first met I didn't really feel anything for him. He was just one of my friends that I hung out with at lunch, and wait for after school to give a hug. We would text all the time, and when I first started working at Safeway I would call him on my lunch breaks and we would chat for the 30 minutes I had.

     On my days off, we would hang out and go play frisbee golf or go see a movie, and even go out to eat. Typical.. but sooner I started to want to spend all the time with him. Something was drawing me towards him. Maybe it was the fact that around him, I could be myself. Not put a mask on and act like who he wanted.

     One night he came over and we talked for hours on end about different things that was bothering us. I felt like we connected. And after he left that night, I went to bed and wondered how it would be if we were dating. That next morning, I took the chance and sent him a text...

" I really feel like we connect together, would you like to be my boyfriend." - I sent him that, and waited for a reply. Knowing he was at work, I waited till it was time for his lunch. When he text me, He said yes. I felt amazing. Then I had to work, always great.

     Since we've been together, its definitely been a bumpy road. But I wouldn't have it any other way. He's the one for me, and I feel like I am the one for him. We give each other hard times, and fight like kids sometimes.

     But at the end of the day.. I lay right next to him. And cuddle with him and know that in my heart, this is true..


I Love You Zachary!
Happy 6 month anniversary!