Relationships

     In the past I've written about relationships and the outcome of the relationship to each person. I've realized since I last wrote that, a lot has changed. With certain people it has grow, and with others it has slowly come to its end. In my eyes, it seems like life certainly does change us throughout any situation.


     Recently, I've notice the relationship between mother and daughter has become more like best of friends. When I lived with my parents, the relationship was certainly different. They took care of me, fed me, dealt with my "problems", and a whole lot more. But now, that I'm out on my own it definitely has changed. With my family in Iowa, and me here in Colorado it certainly has made a difference in our communication. Thanks to modern day technology I can text them, call them, or even Skype them. Now that its been almost a year since I've been out of my parents place it certainly has been hard on me.
     Come to think of it, I miss them more than I ever have before. Yes, we had our arguments and fights but in the end I love them oh so very much. Especially my mom, I feel like now that she doesn't have to cloth me or feed me our relationship is getting to a better place. Which puts my heart at peace knowing that we will always love each other like mother and daughter and now best friends. I knew that our relationship had taken a turn for the worst a couple years ago when I resented the fact that we had to move from North Carolina. When we lived with my Grandpa, I hated it then, not because of my grandpa but because of the situation I was in. I literally put myself in depression mode. I'm still living with it to this day, but I have it under control.
     There is a time I wish I could take back, I remember it like it was yesterday. I came home from school, all mad and not being reasonable. I don't remember what it was exactly that I was mad about.  Anyways, I went and got the mail and came back and I took out my anger on my mom. She came up to me and I hit her glasses off her face. I didn't realize then what I really did to our relationship.
     Now, I realized what I did was the outcome of us fighting most of the time. I remember my mom telling me something that has stuck with me since then. She told me that she didn't even know who I was anymore. To be honest mom, neither did I. She wanted her Stephanie back, and I didn't do that.
     I'm sorry mom. I know I've said it a billion times. You are my best friend mom. The one I can talk to when I'm not in the right mind set. I owe a lot to you.


The SongBird