Stand My Ground

     I've never been one to take criticism very kindly. See, in my point of view it's like telling me that I can't do something that I've seen other people do or even what I've done before. I was in this predicament a couple days ago. I've been thinking about what has been said ever since then, and even that day I couldn't help but cry and feel horrible about everything.


     It all started while on my way to work. Since my car is dead and Zach's truck is down for the moment, I had to hitch a ride. I thought it would have been a quiet one, I could stare at the snow that was coming down and ponder before I had to go clean bathrooms and deal with snoody people. To bad it didn't end up that way. Yes, I realize that things that were said were probably not meant to be so harsh, but the way they were described was definitely not as what was meant to be said.


     Have you ever had a person basically tell you that you are incapable of being able to have a brain? That's kind of how I felt on what seemed like a long car ride. My character basically went from great to worse. I realize that the comments said were probably in anger. I mean, it didn't really have to be this way. I was fully aware of the situation that Zach and I are in. It's not like we needed a BIG fat reminder. But yet, some people just think that they have to stick their nose where it does not belong.


     Especially when they have it really good. When Zach and I moved into our own place we realized that things were going to change. The extra money we had would be going to bills. Now that we have Koda we are taking care of him and making sure that he is well fed and has a great house to live in.


     Even though the words that were said didn't make me feel any better about the situation, it made me realize that he doesn't even know the situation we are in. How would he care? I've tried to hold my tongue for a while do to the fact that I respect others.


     Now that I am getting to the point to where I can't take the constant badgering and feeling like I haven't accomplished anything. I will stand my ground and not let anyone tell me what to do or judge me on mistakes made. That's what makes me human, is my mistakes and learning from them. I won't let my life be controlled by others that obviously don't know what I do and who I am.






-The SongBird-