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Tuesday, July 1, 2014

MisAdventures Of A Young Adult

     It's been a while since I last posted. It's funny how fast time flies, it doesn't feel like it's already July. Lately in my life I've been thinking about everything. Isn't that what life is about? I've been working more lately and haven't been able to be at home a whole lot.


     You know, I like my job. I work maintenance at my local Wal-Mart. It isn't a bad job, it pays the bills. But lately it's just been getting harder and harder. I'm a very hard worker. I try my best to make sure that my job is done completely and perfect. There are good days and there are bad days. Like today, I came into work and got straight to it. It was very crazy today probably because of the 4th of July coming in just 3 days. We had so many lines at the cash registers and it was backing all the way to the shoe department. Being maintenance I was called non stop and it was getting harder and harder to focus on each task. Let's just say I pushed through and got to clock out and now I'm home relaxing.


     Seems like lately it's been waking up and going to work then coming home and going straight to bed. I honestly hate it sometimes,  but life isn't about partying and having fun. I can have fun occasionally but not all the time. Tonight at work a customer made a comment while walking out the door that actually got to me. She walked by and made the comment that Wal-Mart employees are retards and she said it right in front of her children. I couldn't believe she would say that right in front of me. See, a lot of customers say some pretty rude things to me that I just brush off but this comment actually got to me. Sometimes I think it's the stupidity of people that have no idea what it is like for us. Some actually have compassion but others have no patience. Oh well I guess..


     Recently Zach and I celebrated our engagement. We had friends and some family there. I really wanted my mom and dad to be there but they weren't. I understand that they aren't so close to me anymore. But I honestly do miss them, more than they know. We had a great time, but I'm honestly glad that it is over. Just one less thing I have to worry about.


     Now, I get to focus on our townhouse. We have an inspection coming up and so now I have to focus on cleaning the house completely and making sure that it is up to inspection guidelines. I'll be glad when that's over as well.


     Well,  I figure that I'm going to make it a task of mine to write everyday. I'll do my best at least


Thanks!


A Song Bird (:

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Our Futures..

     A couple days ago I was talking to Zach about our futures. We have tried in the past but haven't really taken it as serious as it sounds. To some it might not sound as important, but to me I think it's very important since we are both young and live on our own. When we first moved in together I thought it was the most amazing thing in the world. I never realized that we would be moving in so quick, but life is kind of funny that way. Since we started dating, I've always imagined what our life would be like. My own little fantasy land if you want to call it that.


     We would move in and live together, our relationship would grow and we would become engaged. We'd both have jobs and we would save money. Our careers would come to play after we went to some schooling and got our diplomas. We'd spend more time together and really learn about each other more.We'd plan our wedding maybe a year to two years after becoming engaged, etc. To bad something in life aren't always the way you thought it would be.


     While yes some of the things I've mentioned have came true. They also came quicker than I thought. Isn't it funny about life yet again? I love Zach, don't get me wrong. We've been through a lot together. Our families both have their doubts, some more than others, but yet we are still here. When we first started dating and all the drama was going on I honestly thought to myself.. " This isn't going to last.."


     We've overcome a lot. Fights, disagreements, families need to input on everything we have done or did wrong in their eyes, etc. We are still strong. We are overcoming obstacles everyday.


     Our futures are looking up for us right now. We are looking into our careers, what we want to do with our lives. We are looking at the schooling it will take for us to achieve our goals. We are planning an engagement party even though the odds are against us, we are doing it for us. This is about our futures. Not what futures our family thinks we need, but what is best for us. Our own decisions are being made. Yes we aren't going to impress family or make them change their opinions but it isn't about them, it's about us.




- The Songbird-
    

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Odd Days..

     Yesterday I wasn't having the best of days. I woke up and got ready for work. Normal things like eating breakfast, driving to work, etc. I tried to focus on the positive things in my life. I always try and do that everyday. I'm tired of being in a slum.


     Anyways, when I was at work I had a great day. I was doing my job and having fun with co-workers. My relief came in at 12 and I was just about to go on my lunch when I was called for a task. Taking the initiative I got my tools and was ready to make a bale. My co worker started to talk to me about the previous day. He began to talk down to me, telling me things that only a boss would tell me, not a co worker.


     I have had much respect for this man, seeing that he has been there longer than me. But something inside me blew up. See, my parents have taught me to respect my elders. I have done this forever. I told him with respect that I didn't understand how he could treat me like I'm nothing, or go to management whenever I don't do anything like how he does. I told him that I didn't like the fact that I give him respect and I get nothing in return.


     He began to get angry and told me to shut up, etc. All I did was complete my task and then go take my lunch. When my other co worker came in I told him that I just needed to stay was to stay away for a while from him. After what happened, it made me feel different. I came to work to make money and have fun.


     I realized last night after a Skype call with my mom, that I didn't realize the real reason for work. I come to work for myself and Zach. For the both of us to be able to live in a place and not have to worry about where we are going to stay, or whether or not we have enough food in the house. I work to make money and  to have the positivity of knowing that I have a job and I can make money.


     So now, I get to go to work. Knowing that I'm making money and learning new things at the same time.


Have a great night Songbirds..


-The Songbird-

Monday, May 26, 2014

A New Name for Myself

     In the past I've written about how my life long passion was to become a journalist. For so long I haven't focused on what I really wanted to do. I just came up with something that was closest to my passion. I don't want to become a journalist anymore. I want to be a certified event planner.


     I've done some research on becoming an event planner. It's somewhat harder than what I thought, but I love it. I've throw a few parties so far. Small get together for a going away party, birthday parties,etc. When I told Zach I wanted to do this he told me that I will still have to keep my day job. Of course! It's something on the side for now, until it becomes a full time thing. I'm so excited though.


     I haven't given up my hobby which is writing. Even though I don't post a whole lot more. I promise though to write at least every day, even if it is a small piece. I love writing, it's a great stress reliever.


     Party planning has always been my passion. I love seeing the happy kids or the smiles on peoples faces. We'll see where this goes.


Keep Positive Songbirds..


_ The Songbird_

Saturday, May 17, 2014

My Thoughts Exactly

     My mom has the right idea. She is here until Sunday along with my dad, brother, and his friend. Since yesterday was my day off, I took my brother and his friend for a ride along the town. We saw train tracks, a couple of new places built, and we went over to my house where the boys both got to meet my cat, Koda. We went to where I work and got some drinks. We went to Taco Bell and ate some delicious food and even went swimming. Zach, Jonathan, and Monty went swimming while I sat on the side with my feet in the water.


     I was able to spend time with my mom today something I was in dire need of. We went to Village Inn both ordered the same thing; Chicken Fried Steak, Eggs, Hash Browns, and Pancakes. Let's just say I walked away stuffed and happy.


     Anyways, when we were talking I realized something she said was something I much needed to hear. We were talking about family. Just talking about family is hard for me. I've reserved much comments I'd really like to tell my extended family. Out of respect for my elders and the unneeded drama, I've held my tongue.


     I've watched my mom cry and struggle. It's devastated me. I saw this yesterday, my mom cried and it broke my heart. A woman who has been put through a lot, who is on vacation only to have fun who is crying. My heart was broken again. The bullcrap of other's not understanding and obviously not caring just amazes me. I wish my family would grow up and while yes I would love to tell the people who have made many cry especially my mom where to shove it. I'm still going to hold my tongue.


     There is too much drama going on in my family, I'm not going to sit here and take it or deal with it anymore. Life's to short for drama, and the stupidity of others and the hatred shown towards those that have given to much of their lives to those that don't respect it.


- The Songbird-

Thursday, May 15, 2014

My 30 Day Challenge

     I have an obsession. Now I never thought I'd be so obsessed about Facebook. It started five years ago and it slowly grew. Two years ago it was the focus of my summer, and it definitely wasn't the best.


     I realized something today with the help of my mom. I need a break from Facebook for a while. So I'm giving myself a 30 day challenge. I will not be on Facebook for 30 days. I'll admit it'll definitely be hard. I get on Facebook whenever I can. It's kind of like my newspaper in the morning.


     I think I need this break from Facebook because I need my focus and time back. For so long, I've wasted my time always on Facebook.


     Focusing on my life is most important. I can focus on my party planning business, focus on this blog, write stories and learn business and do what I love. This is something I need to do for me.


     So, here it goes...


           My 30 day challenge to not be on Facebook. After my 30 days, I'll post the results.


- The Songbird-

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Green Thumb

     I've never had a green thumb, period! When I was younger I had a couple plants in my room. Honestly I thought I was amazing. I had a Ficus, and another odd named one that obviously I can't remember. They sat on my desk in my cute little room in North Carolina and never left that spot.


     I tried to take very good care of them. Watering them daily, making sure they had enough sunlight, and also being kept in a safe place away from my dog. I basically listened to whatever my mom said. Well... I tried to anyways.


     They aren't with me anymore. My mom has them in Iowa now. I was slowly but surely killing them. My mom would check on them while I was at school ever so often to make sure they were still alive. She would tell me that I over watered them or under watered them and so to keep them alive and not dead.. I gave them to my mom to watch over.


     When I did have them it brought a sense of pride to my self esteem. Now, I know it may sound weird to some, and it might just make sense to the others. Now mind you I was also around maybe 11 or 12..? Maybe older? I can't remember. All I remember is when I had them in my room it brought a certain light and energy into my mood and vibe. They made my room colorful. It brought individuality to my personality and room. Yes they were green, but it was something different.


     Now that I have my own place. I want to retry my luck with my green thumb. A small plant to start out would be nice. Something colorful to add to our little place. I would only face the issue of our cat. He's not to bad, but put something new and something he can dig in and we'd got an issue. We'll see about it.


     I'd really like to have my own garden. I think it'd be pretty cool to grow your own plants. Veggies and fruits you can pick and now that they weren't tampered with when being put in the produce shelves. That's something for the future when we get a bigger house with our own backyard. But we aren't in a rush, so it's kind of nice being able to dream about something and see exactly how you want it to look.


That's my dream I guess..


- The Songbird-