For quite some time, I've told myself that i'm going to change my life around. We've all had that moment. The " oh yeah, we'll start today" moment but when in reality we revert right back to our old ways. I have had this plenty of times, with different subjects like losing weight, beauty, confidence levels, and even boy issues.It's a haunting realization that even though I tell myself i'm going to finally change my life, I don't.
I think for me, being a shy, and very quiet type I don't feel like i'm good enough to even try and change. Being with my friends, I see how happy they are, and I want that happiness too, except i'm not willing to change that. Now that i'm out of high school, I finally feel like I can be who I want to be without being judged. And i know that even though i'm out of high school, that doesn't mean that the judging stops. It does continue, at work, in public, at home. I guess that's a part of life, judging others. I can't really talk, because I judge sometimes too, but I guess what i'm trying to say is that even though people are judging me, I finally feel like I have the confidence to not let it get to me.
Yes there will be weak moments, and i'll want to give in and say defeat. I know i'm not perfect, no one is. It's not a race to see if i'll succeed or fail. It's a mental motivator to myself to see if I am worth the challenge or not. I have to have confidence in myself, to see myself go farther in life than I am currently. And for me, I'm up for the challenge.
No comments:
Post a Comment