I remember waking up every Saturday and hearing laughter come out of my parents room. It would bring a smile to my face to hear my mom laughing. There would be days where I would come in and get roped into massaging my dad's feet or back because of his injuries. My mom would leave the room and I'd be left with my dad trying to fall asleep. It was funny sometimes, cause I would try to leave and he would automatically wake up. There would be days were I was able to get away with it.
Now, I have found that same person like my mom that makes me laugh when I wake up. He is an amazing guy, and I'm really lucky I have him. He is my cuddle buddy, and my pillow sometimes.
Like my mom, I got that person that makes me feel like I can be who I want. I don't want to lose him. My morning laughter wouldn't be the same. What is your morning laughter?
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Monday, January 20, 2014
Blank Mind
...................................................... I've been sitting here thinking about what to write. Maybe that's why I'm so far behind when it comes to my blog. Before I write a blog piece, I think about something that I want to write about. Sometimes it will come to me when I'm doing something. But for some reason, I haven't been able to think about anything that seems to catch me in wanting to write about it.
I try to write my blog pieces when I get the chance to. When it's just me, or I have my headphones in so I know what I can focus on. Whenever I don't have anything on my mind, I write about quirky things.
I think they might call this "Writer's Block", but I'm not sure. Has this ever happened to you?
I try to write my blog pieces when I get the chance to. When it's just me, or I have my headphones in so I know what I can focus on. Whenever I don't have anything on my mind, I write about quirky things.
I think they might call this "Writer's Block", but I'm not sure. Has this ever happened to you?
Sunday, January 19, 2014
My Brother
Pictures say a thousand words. When my brother was born I was to little to remember anything that we did together. Pictures that my mom has now are the only reminders of when we were younger. I remember a little of what happened when we were at such a young age. The books we would read, the games we would play when it was raining outside, etc.
I was thinking about my brother and I realize how much I miss him. Yes, we can Skype, text, and call each other. But it just isn't the same for me. I wish sometimes we could have hung out more, and really got to know one another.
When we were younger, I hated going outside. Being that he was a boy and I was a girl, it made sense that I hated the outdoors. I never wanted to play football, basketball, or basically go outside. Which definitely made our relationship a hard one to live with. I remember all the fights we would have over going outside. I regret doing that to my brother, he didn't deserve that.
I would make promises to him when he would beg me to go outside, and I'd break every single one of them. There was just something about outside that I guess I didn't like. When I would go outside, I would mumble and groan about how stupid it was.
When I started getting older, most of the things that my brother wanted to do, I wasn't interested in. We are three years apart, so it kind of made sense. As I got into High School, I definitely has different interests. I started writing more, reading, and focusing on my studies. My brother was still interested in sports, playing Xbox, and hanging out with friends.
As he came into High School, we both ended up in NJROTC. I will admit, I was angry at first because I finally was able to have my very own group. After coming to the realization that my brother was going to be in the program, I aimed towards proving to my parents that I was the best out of the two. Yes, competition between my brother and I was stronger than ever. We always had to prove each other that we were better.
As I sit here now, I wonder what would have been if I had went outside instead of make it a fuss about getting outside my comfort level, or if I would have accepted what my brother would have wanted to do. But those are "what if's" and I can't change the past.
All I can do is move on, and I know that my brother and I are still somewhat close. I hope that he is reading this, so he can realize how much he means to me. If your reading this, I want you to know that I'm sorry I didn't do a lot of things with you when we were younger, like play basketball. I hope in some way, you can forgive me. I Love You Brother!
I was thinking about my brother and I realize how much I miss him. Yes, we can Skype, text, and call each other. But it just isn't the same for me. I wish sometimes we could have hung out more, and really got to know one another.
When we were younger, I hated going outside. Being that he was a boy and I was a girl, it made sense that I hated the outdoors. I never wanted to play football, basketball, or basically go outside. Which definitely made our relationship a hard one to live with. I remember all the fights we would have over going outside. I regret doing that to my brother, he didn't deserve that.
I would make promises to him when he would beg me to go outside, and I'd break every single one of them. There was just something about outside that I guess I didn't like. When I would go outside, I would mumble and groan about how stupid it was.
When I started getting older, most of the things that my brother wanted to do, I wasn't interested in. We are three years apart, so it kind of made sense. As I got into High School, I definitely has different interests. I started writing more, reading, and focusing on my studies. My brother was still interested in sports, playing Xbox, and hanging out with friends.
As he came into High School, we both ended up in NJROTC. I will admit, I was angry at first because I finally was able to have my very own group. After coming to the realization that my brother was going to be in the program, I aimed towards proving to my parents that I was the best out of the two. Yes, competition between my brother and I was stronger than ever. We always had to prove each other that we were better.
As I sit here now, I wonder what would have been if I had went outside instead of make it a fuss about getting outside my comfort level, or if I would have accepted what my brother would have wanted to do. But those are "what if's" and I can't change the past.
All I can do is move on, and I know that my brother and I are still somewhat close. I hope that he is reading this, so he can realize how much he means to me. If your reading this, I want you to know that I'm sorry I didn't do a lot of things with you when we were younger, like play basketball. I hope in some way, you can forgive me. I Love You Brother!
Saturday, January 18, 2014
A Day Of Rest
My life has been quite the busy one lately. I have a lot going on in my head that I want to get out and take a moment to look back on the success and mistakes I've made. A daily routine is this: waking up extra early so I can get Zach's lunch and breakfast made. After he leaves then it's onto cleaning for me. Then I get ready for the day. Look for jobs and have no luck at any of them. Then I watch some T.V and write in my journal or on here. Take a couple more hours to look for a job. Make dinner, and wait for Zach to come home.
Today is my day of rest. I haven't really had a day where everything is accomplished and I can relax. Today I'm going to watch T.V and put my feet up, I'm going to take a nap because I feel dead tired. I'm going to read my books about Reiki and take notes. Do some job hunting and tell myself that I can do it!
Today is a ME day. I'm looking forwards to taking some time for me, and reassuring myself that I haven't completely lost my mind. I think everyone needs a ME day. Just to get a hold of your busy life.
Today is my day of rest. I haven't really had a day where everything is accomplished and I can relax. Today I'm going to watch T.V and put my feet up, I'm going to take a nap because I feel dead tired. I'm going to read my books about Reiki and take notes. Do some job hunting and tell myself that I can do it!
Today is a ME day. I'm looking forwards to taking some time for me, and reassuring myself that I haven't completely lost my mind. I think everyone needs a ME day. Just to get a hold of your busy life.
Friday, January 17, 2014
Just Me
Lately, I've been thinking about everything in my life. I have lived a good life so far. Beginning with my parent's raising me, to now being out on my own. It's amazing what can happen when you put your mind to it. I never thought I would be out on my own.
Coming up to the day's of graduation it was exciting yet scary as well. I was in the routine of waking up every Monday through Friday and getting ready to go to school. The thought of leaving the daily routine to go and do something had me scared. That feeling didn't sink in until I took those steps leading to my diploma.
Since then, it has been a rocky road leading me to where I am now. Yes, there are things I wish I would have done differently. But that's brought me to where I am today with people that I love and cherish, and things that have changed my viewpoint on a great many things.
I have a long ways to go, and many more lessons that I need to learn. I look forward to the future and wish that I can have a good life. I know that things won't go my way, but I look forward to being able to learn from them.
All we can do in this life is learn, and grow. I'm looking to learn and grow! What About You?
Coming up to the day's of graduation it was exciting yet scary as well. I was in the routine of waking up every Monday through Friday and getting ready to go to school. The thought of leaving the daily routine to go and do something had me scared. That feeling didn't sink in until I took those steps leading to my diploma.
Since then, it has been a rocky road leading me to where I am now. Yes, there are things I wish I would have done differently. But that's brought me to where I am today with people that I love and cherish, and things that have changed my viewpoint on a great many things.
I have a long ways to go, and many more lessons that I need to learn. I look forward to the future and wish that I can have a good life. I know that things won't go my way, but I look forward to being able to learn from them.
All we can do in this life is learn, and grow. I'm looking to learn and grow! What About You?
Thursday, January 16, 2014
"It's A Party"
For a while, I've been thinking about starting my very own business. This idea came to me when I was writing in my journal about how I liked to make people happy. I think it was also because I was watching my favorite movie Bride Wars. I never thought I could do anything like what a planner does.
It wasn't until recently that I started pursing the passion of creating my own part planning business. It's been a rocky start. With not a lot of publicity it's hard to get many events planned. So far I've only done four. Yes it is a start, but I love it.
What made me want to start a party business? I've been a person that loves to please people, like I said before. I also love writing and it's a perfect combination of the two. The hardest part though is getting it off the ground and fully running.
My goal is to get it to the point to where I can have event after event. The main point of my business is to enjoy the love, and have fun
I am calling it "It's A Party" simply because it will be a party. We'll see where this goes. Please share this with others! Like the pages and even comment!
Thank you to everyone that reads this blog! It means so much!
Link To Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ASongBirdsTune
Link To Twitter: https://twitter.com/ItsAPartyForU
It wasn't until recently that I started pursing the passion of creating my own part planning business. It's been a rocky start. With not a lot of publicity it's hard to get many events planned. So far I've only done four. Yes it is a start, but I love it.
What made me want to start a party business? I've been a person that loves to please people, like I said before. I also love writing and it's a perfect combination of the two. The hardest part though is getting it off the ground and fully running.
My goal is to get it to the point to where I can have event after event. The main point of my business is to enjoy the love, and have fun
I am calling it "It's A Party" simply because it will be a party. We'll see where this goes. Please share this with others! Like the pages and even comment!
Thank you to everyone that reads this blog! It means so much!
Link To Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ASongBirdsTune
Link To Twitter: https://twitter.com/ItsAPartyForU
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
My Personal Goal
I've had this goal of being able to learn more about myself. Being able to love myself and then I'll be able to love others. I've also struggled with this for quite some time. I finally think that I'll be able to get some ground and be able to have the ability to love myself and be able to finally live my life.
It started when I began to overeat, or eat in the confides of my room. I would take stuff from the kitchen and get have a hog heaven when everyone would go to bed. It was chips, cheese, pepperoni slices, etc. Anything I could get my hands on I would devour. When I started gaining weight, I would eat more because I was depressed I was that size. I didn't realize the damage until it was to late.
I've since then had an issue with my weight and eating. I'm trying to change that though, doing more things to preoccupy my time instead of have a kitchen brawl out with the refrigerator. I'm slowly getting there, and soon hopefully I will have accomplished at least one part to my goal of overeating and eating to much at the table.
Working out also isn't my strong suit. Since I was little, I've always hated going outside. I can't explain why, but it makes me angry when I do. Especially as a young girl with a little brother that always wanted to go outside. That's another reason why my brother and I didn't get along growing up. But now, I want a change. I mean a serious change in my lifestyle and ways of growing up.
Zach isn't giving up on me, especially when sometimes all I want to do is eat or sit in front of the T.V for a whole day and pig out on ice cream and Mozzarella sticks. I have more important things to do with my time. That's why this year is the year of change in my life. I'm not going to give up on myself because that hasn't gotten me anywhere. It's time for me to change, and I'm ready for it!
It started when I began to overeat, or eat in the confides of my room. I would take stuff from the kitchen and get have a hog heaven when everyone would go to bed. It was chips, cheese, pepperoni slices, etc. Anything I could get my hands on I would devour. When I started gaining weight, I would eat more because I was depressed I was that size. I didn't realize the damage until it was to late.
I've since then had an issue with my weight and eating. I'm trying to change that though, doing more things to preoccupy my time instead of have a kitchen brawl out with the refrigerator. I'm slowly getting there, and soon hopefully I will have accomplished at least one part to my goal of overeating and eating to much at the table.
Working out also isn't my strong suit. Since I was little, I've always hated going outside. I can't explain why, but it makes me angry when I do. Especially as a young girl with a little brother that always wanted to go outside. That's another reason why my brother and I didn't get along growing up. But now, I want a change. I mean a serious change in my lifestyle and ways of growing up.
Zach isn't giving up on me, especially when sometimes all I want to do is eat or sit in front of the T.V for a whole day and pig out on ice cream and Mozzarella sticks. I have more important things to do with my time. That's why this year is the year of change in my life. I'm not going to give up on myself because that hasn't gotten me anywhere. It's time for me to change, and I'm ready for it!
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